It’s deep and necessary.
It’s true when they say that our shit shows up in our energy first, then our minds, then our emotions and then our body.
It presented itself fully to me today and I felt it deeply in my heart. After weeks of not owning it or, being able to put into words what was coming up for me.
If I were to describe it to you further, It felt like someone had wrapped their hand, strongly around my heart.
I wasn’t scared though.
Because during our regular team meeting, my colleagues were sharing so vulnerably and beautifully that it allowed my shit to come to the surface too.
No matter how hard I tried to remain strong, I just couldn’t hold back the tears. As incredibly difficult as it was, it was necessary!
For the first time in 1 year, I was able to cry about moving from Australia to NZ.
Obviously at some point back in 2020, moving on meant something had opened in my head and in my heart.
But embracing the future and thriving, comes with empathic guilt.
Moving away from family and friends has put a physical distance between us and everything I once knew.
Things are changing (it’s inevitable) … yet I still can’t help but feel bad for it.
The experts say this guilt is normal when you follow your dreams and succeed
When you’re an empath … because “we empaths” often feel responsible for the events, feelings, or actions of others, that are not ours to own.
To everyone and everything I have moved away from, please know this …
I didn’t leave or create this distance because of you
I have not left you behind
I love you
I will see you again and again
Our relationships will not end
I will always care deeply and you will always matter
I will still be there for you (even if that looks differently now)
I will never forget you or the impact you have had on me
You are welcome here
Please don’t see my growth as a negative
I’m not intentionally moving further away from you … I am moving closer to me.
I don’t need anyone to tell me that I don’t need to feel guilty. I know I don’t. I don’t need anyone to reassure me that I did the right thing. I know I did.
What I would love instead, is that you use me as your example that trusting in yourself, doing what's right for you and, taking action (even with heartache) is possible.
